April 18th was just another regular Sunday for me. I woke up and got ready for church. I rushed out the door, jumped in my car, and walked into Chain Reaction a few minutes late. Typical. I grabbed my seat near the back and said hi to a few people around me. Worship had already started and I joined in. Some time later Kyle came up to give his message and I started taking notes. He used In-N-Out as a message illustration, so I was also thinking about lunch, of course.
It was just another Sunday morning.
I had no idea that this particular Sunday would change everything.

Towards the end of his message Kyle restated something he had been reminding us of a lot lately. God can use anybody. God can use you to do great things. Kyle invited us to say out loud, if we really wanted it, “God, I want to be greatly used by you.”
I did. And the very next day, He got to work.
I believe that God is always working, but I was finally ready and willing to be used and had my eyes and ears open to recognize it. I know that God had used me for great things before, but I had to go through a season of healing after some difficult life circumstances. On that Sunday morning, God told me it was time once again.

Nothing has really been the same since that day. The last few weeks have been somewhat chaotic. I have been helping my family out a lot as some health issues have come up with my aging grandparents, and things are a little crazy at home. I also had a long discussion with my family and have made some big life changes to free myself up for whatever God has planned for me.

I feel a bit like Joshua standing at the floodwaters in the Old Testament. God told Joshua he is supposed to lead the Israelites across the Jordan River in order to get to their new land; to their new and better life that God had promised them. The Jordan River was flooded and rushing at the time, and I’m sure Joshua was plenty scared about how he would make it happen. But God told him to be strong and courageous. And as soon as they took that step of faith, as soon as they stepped into the floodwaters, God stopped the raging river and they all crossed safely into their new and better life.

I have also spent the last few weeks scared and worried about the future and what steps are next. But I feel a peace and comforted knowing that God is up to something. He has it figured out for me. I just have to trust Him. I’m taking the first step into the floodwaters, and waiting to see what He does next. How can I not trust that it’s in His hands, when I told Him that I wanted Him to use me? I don’t know what’s next, but I’m not afraid anymore.